The one New year's resolution anyone could get behind

2019 came with a whirlwind of emotions. Partially because I had my mind set on specific goals for this year and partially because the new month barely started and I already encountered a few struggles with work that have triggered my anxiety to a very high level. As I experience this anxiety that I, unfortunately, know so well, I am experiencing new feelings as well. I am a little anxious, but I am also at peace with that.

I know I am where I need to be right at this moment for the sake of growing and truly being able to embody everything else I would like to accomplish this year. I won’t get into my goals and intentions for 2019 as I believe these are intrinsically personal, but there is one of my resolutions that I can’t wait to share with anyone who would like to follow along this journey with me.

In 2018, I fell a little bit (or maybe a lot) in the rabbit hole of mindless consumerism in order to fulfil the void and to silence my anxiety’s voice. I have bought way more than I needed as an attempt to dress my ‘fantasy self’ - the person who I would like to be - but not for the person I actually am right now. This means that as the year has ended, I was left with a lot of shiny new things that neither represent me or what I stand for.

I am not sure of many of you may know, but I follow a plant-based diet and really try to reduce my packaged and plastic products consumption to a minimum. Why haven’t I transferred these values to my wardrobes is a question that I have asked myself a lot, to the point I finally annoyed myself enough to do something about it. Don’t get me wrong, I buy a lot of vintage and second-hand stuff in general, but I also managed to add a few items from Zara, Topshop and Asos every few weeks.

Once my income became higher, I started to put less thought into what I consume. I feel that the less I struggled financially, the easier was to justify a purchase. As a student with a very limited source of income, I had to analyse every single purchase I would make, even a cup of coffee had to be budgeted in. I would like to return to that mindset to some extent, I am grateful to be in a more comfortable financial situation nowadays, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t think about where my pennies go.

I had a self-imposed shopping ban a few years ago and although I have the utmost respect for those who can successfully pursue it, I still enjoy to fall in love with new things and stop shopping just like that would be setting me up for failure. For this year, I am giving myself the allowance to buy 2 items a month, which tallies to 24 items in a year. That might seem like a lot to some, but I am sure I am not alone when it comes to continuously acquiring small things here and there. This allowance is for items that serve the purpose of a garment or accessories in general, and even small items like a hair clip will be accounted for.

Also, fast fashion is now out of bounds. In this day and age, we all know that buying from big brands is just bad. Bad for the environment, bad for the people, bad for the animals. I know it’s easier said than done, though. What I do hope is that this shopping ‘limit’ will give me the financial freedom to invest in brands with an ethos I can stand behind - and wear their clothing with pride. I am also taking this opportunity to look out for higher quality luxury vintage pieces from the likes of Ossie Clark, Thea Porter and Biba, which their designs always served me as a major source of inspiration for my personal style.

Giving myself a stopping ground will make me slow down my thoughts and not let the anxiety that I feel when I want an item ‘before it’s gone’ creep in. With this goal in mind, I really hope I can focus on creating more content around sustainability, which is a direction that feels right to me. I felt so motivated when I wrote the post about sustainable alternatives for underwear and this is how I want to feel every time I create something.

Last week I guest blogged for the charity Barnardo’s blog, where I went in depth about ways to prolong the life of your clothes. Creating content around these subjects is really what I want to focus in this new year. Talking about how to enjoy what you already own and hopefully work with incredible partners that I fully support is the best thing I can aim for 2019!

I am just a tiny blogger amidst a vast sea of fashion content being put out every hour of the day, but I am finally ready to stand my ground and make something meaningful with this space that I am so grateful to have.

One more last thing, did you like my new blog design? New year, new blog, am I right?!

Hope Y'all stick around for this new adventure,

Camilla
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